Funk

So my last post sucked.  I just couldn't seem to find the words to describe how much fun we had.  And I know why.

I am in a funk.

There are several reasons for this funk:

1.  I recently had a house full of visitors and they are now all gone.  The house has felt empty.

2.  BOTH kids are now in school (not full time, but I have a couple of hours 3 days a week to myself) so the house is REALLY empty.

3.  I am missing my first girls trip.  I have gone on a girl's trip (Mom's Gone Wild) since it was started (4 years ago) and this weekend, they are all (minus me) in Sun Valley right now.

I have been looking forward to having some alone time, but now that I have it, I just don't know what to do with  myself.  Today, I decided to turn on the TV. 

What a Mistake!

I have been sucked into watching "A Baby Story."  NOT the show to be watching while missing your children who are now old enough to be in school.

Watching all these women give birth has made me a little emotional. 

(I guess another reason for the funk is just plain old PMS.)

I have been reminiscing about the births of both of my kids, and then I get all sad because they are so big now!

Where did the time go?

So here I sit, watching a "Baby Story" with tears streaming down my cheeks.  Am I a wreck or what?

Then the thought hits, "Hey, I could just have another baby!" 

Seems like the perfect solution, right?

Hmmmmmmm.

At first, this idea appealed to me.  I LOVE babies, and what better to have one around all the time!

Then I remember the sleepless nights, diapers, breast-feeding, and being pregnant.

Also, is being lonely the best reason for having a baby?  Probably not.

At least, not for me.

I am going to have to deal with an empty house at some point.  I can't avoid it forever. 

(And most days I really look forward to having alone time.)

Things to look forward to with my alone time:

1.  Getting the house finally decorated.  I need to paint, and soon.  I put it of all summer, and now is the time to get it done.

2.  SCRAPBOOKING!  I have not made any pages in months, years possibly.  Plus, I have 2 baby books to make for some friends that I HAVE to get done before the end of the year.

3.  Being able to help out in school.  I am really looking forward to becoming more involved in Ciara's (and eventually Caden's school.)

I will now focus on these last 2 items, and work on getting out of this funk.

(and some chocolate might help as well)