What if I had decided not to go to college in the States, and had stayed in Colombia for college? This is a pretty random thought, since there was no way that would have happened. I would have fallen in love with a Colombian, and lived the good life there. I would have a maid, driver, lived in a great apartment, had someone to watch the kids, been a member of the Club. Plus, my kids would be bilingual. Sounds good, right? Well, there are some other things I would have had to give up. When we lived there, there were many married men who seemed to be under the impression that they were allowed to have girlfriends. I know that not all Colombian men are this way, etc. However, this did seem to be pretty acceptable (the ex-pats sometimes adopted this as well). I don't think I could deal with that. I am much better off being with the love of my life (or my soulmate as the psychic said) than with all the other stuff. I do still miss Colombia, and miss the excitement of being in a big city. I do like to complain about Utah (who doesn't) but I think I will keep what I have got. I have never thought that my life would be better if anything changed, but I like to daydream about different things. After all the daydreams, I am always grateful for everything I have (and don't have). Does anyone else daydream about what might have been, or am I just crazy?
2 comments:
Oh I do this often! I thought I was the only one. But I'm like you, grateful for where I am instead of what I would have been!
Good, I am glad I am not alone!
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